Well look at this, I am totally surprising myself on this front. Working from home makes me uber productive. Not only did I crank out some work, I also changed my sheets, did laundry, cleaned my apartment, grocery shopped and headed to a night shift at the running store.
I am starting to wonder where this energy is coming from. I am quite baffled at how I am doing it all but then I realize this is something I would have NEVER been able to do when I was sick. An ED does rob you of life, it takes away priorities, makes living that much harder. I don’t have to focus on that part of me now, things just click, I get much more done. It feels good to be at that point. I also don’t mean to complain as much as I do. I want to work on this, I think complaining is something I do out of habit rather than actually being miserable. Heck, I tend to smile more these days than I ever have but then complain more than I ever had. Bad bad habit.
As I prepare for a long shift at the running store on this lovely Saturday, I am throwing out some it’s ok to kick off this weekend.
It’s ok… that this morning’s run will feel glorious on freshly rested legs. Never let that myth that rest days are not needed get in your heads friends. Rest days are amazing.
It’s ok… that I am having trouble believing we will have this hurricane or even bad weather come our way. Yes some drizzles, but I highly doubt what people are predicting. Maybe I am just stubborn. (Knock on wood for all of this) I could also just be in denial. Running on the treadmill, while super easy because there is a gym in my building, will stink butt. I also did not do the whole ‘stock up’ thing so… who is planning on rescuing me if this thing goes down? I will just make A come over, with her dog and lots of Disney movies. Maybe this storm should happen. 
It’s ok… that the dentist neglected to tell you this crown procedure takes THREE trips to him. Aka I still have two more left. Aka I want to sucker punch him.
It’s ok… that you get pure joy from tackling to-do lists like a boss. Yes, I just went there.
It’s ok… that when you read your name on other blogs you can’t help but smile. Gosh, you people out there make my day.
It’s ok… if you are slightly freaking out about starting to work on job applications again. I have no idea what I will do after this year is up, I know I will be allowed to stay for another year and who knows, I may do that. But right now I want options. But boy do I hate the whole resume, cover letter thing. I suck at promoting myself.
It’s ok… that you miss your mom a lot right now and despite being super busy are strangely lonely.
It’s ok… that you are bummed you are not celebrating Halloween. No parties, no fun treats, boo. Halloween has always been my favorite holiday but living alone I am learning it is no fun. 
It’s ok…that my stomach has been having major issues this week meaning I am back to the basics. I am looking closely at what I eat and hoping to get my stomach back to a better state. Operation tackle nasty stomach begins. Because right now I am in more pain than ever. 
I am in a better mood just by getting that all out. Bring on a weekend of work!
Questions: What is ok about your Saturday? What is your feeling on bad weather?
Yeah this whole weather thing is pretty scary to me too. I think it will miss us here in SC, but it’s still scary bc I have friends going to that marathon in DC and also friends who live in NOVA and of course blogger friends who will be impacted by it.
Hope you can do something fun for Halloween even if you don’t celebrate, eat some candy or something special for Fall!
I need to up my fall stuff, I have done really nothing fallish but eat squash. So lame. I hope this weather is a scam but who knows at this point!
I was chatting with my Mom on the phone while reading this. She wants you to know that she loves your blog too.
Which also taps into the joy of seeing your name on other blogs (because she found yours through mine). I love how much love we give one another.
I also love how being appreciative of the small things can make it easier to tackle the big things. In the “well, if I can manage that then certainly I can manage this” mentality. Case in point — you worked your resume and self-promo skills to get the running store job, you just need to notch it up a bit for something on a bigger scale. You’re totally capable, don’t doubt it — make that resume all jazz and pizzazz and then wow them in person with your humble gratefulness. They won’t know what hit ‘em.
This made me just beam! Your mom sounds like a wonderful lady and thank her for me. I think blogging has done wonders for me both personally and mentally. It is always nice to find people to relate to and learn more about yourself in this setting. I hope you are having a relaxing night.
Everyone needs a place to vent every so often, why not do it in a place where people understand? You’re doing amazing! I often find myself homesick for my mom more when I’m crazy busy than when I’m not. I think it’s from feeling overwhelmed. You’ll get there! Also, you should celebrate Halloween on your own and buy some trick or treat candy to “hand out” (to yourself!) you could have all your favorite candies and not have to worry about getting stuff you don’t like!
Oh gosh trick or treating with myself would make me feel very old. haha, I will just watch some scary movies after I get home from work until 8 pm. Have a great day!
I hope the weather is fine and nothing too drastic happens! We don’t have to deal with hurricanes here, just cyclones. I’m sure you will be fine next year no matter what you do! People love you!!! They’ll be begging you to come to them! Haha
Thanks Bec, you are too sweet. Let’s just pray there is no big storm that hits.
If it’s any consolation, I don’t have anything fun planned for Halloween either. I feel like I’m getting old or something because I used to go all out and party on Halloween, but it’s been a few years since I even dressed up. Pft. I’ll bring over the scary movies and candy corn and we can be loners together, deal?
Deal! I work till 8 but you bet it will be me and my couch after that with some scary movies. My favorite.
Ha I am sitting the library on a Friday night while everyone else is raging so I definitely feel you on the Halloween one! Good luck at work tomorrow
I spent my Friday night watching Degrassi, we are so exciting it is crazy.
Haha I <3 Degrassi. Much butter than partying
Let's have a blogger Halloween party on Wednesday night and pretend we are cool.
sounds like a killer plan to me!
Agh! The storm really does look bad! I really do love being productive. It makes me feel like I have accomplished something at the end of the day. It’s funny, at work sometimes I feel so productive and I even earn my paycheck, but then when I start to feel over stressed because of all that productiveness I sometimes wish there was a time sheet that I could use to punch out! Lol!
Rest days are amazing and I love it when they roll around. I hope your tummy issues settle down girly.
Have a great Saturday! Gonna hit some flea markets and vendors here where I am at today! And maybe a coffee shop or two..
Sounds like a great Saturday for you. I hope the storm isn’t a big deal, I am not prepared or ready for that at all. Uck!
Yay for a productive day! I love it when that happens. I need to get a lot done today, so hopefully some of your productivity will rub off on me.
I miss my mom too. No matter how old I get and no matter how long I’ve been living away from home, sometimes I still wish I could go back and live with my parents again just like in high school!
It is crazy, I never thought I was a family girl until I left home. You will be productive, I feel it. Have a great day!
Glahhh, still need to do laundry and change my sheets! It seems like everyone–meaning my mom and the media, ha–is freaking out about the storm. I might be in denial like you, Alex, but I really don’t want to pack an emergency bag and start stocking up on food. (One bag of almonds is fine, right?) My mom even asked if I want to come home for a few days, and even though I miss her, she’s also coming to visit next weekend, so I don’t want to make the trek all the way to Syracuse. Also, my stomach was giving me problems last night, so I didn’t sleep well–sympathy pains perhaps?
Hope you have a great day at work!
So lucky your mom is coming, that will make this week fly by. I am in denial, I haven’t stocked up at all. Whoooops. I havent been sleeping well either because of that, the worst. I hope you feel better today and enjoy your day off.
You seem so much calmer!!! hooray! Enjoy your day at the running store!
I tend to slap on a smile and make it work. have a great Saturday night!
I don’t have any fun Halloween plans either!
It’s ok….that’s I’m kinda hungover after celebrating my birthday! :-p
Best way to go out for sure! glad you had a blast.
Aaaah I so know what you mean! Celebrating Halloween isn’t very common here in Germany and it makes me so sad actually… I love how you guys in the US always dress up and have fun,so jealous!
it really did used to be my favorite holiday, I loved everything about it. wish i was younger!
I’m in a better mood by reading this! I feel like I just got a burst of energy and inspiration to go tackle my to do list. Thanks and keep kickin butt!
Aw thanks I am glad it got you pumped too. We need someway to get us motivated to get through those tougher day s
I had a to-do list too. Not quite done, but I have all of tomorrow to finish it!
And that’s so funny, because I am the complete opposite of you. When I’m home (like real “home” or dorm room “home”) I get completely unfocused and not very productive
I think it is just how people work, you know? Hope you keep tackling that to do list. Good luck.
No Halloween for me this year but I gotta say – I do miss dressing up! Ah well there’s always candy right
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I loved it for the candy part, no lie.
I’ve already had my Tuesday night class cancelled, woo hoo! I feel like I am focusing on things like losing power at work (woot no work) an dnot having class. I keep forgetting that hey, I might lose power too! At least I’m not focusing on that b/c it makes no sense to just dread this storm. All we can do is get prepared. I’m kinda sick of hearing about the storm!
yes seeing your name on another blog is amaaaazin.
I’m glad that you had a productive day working from home and that you got that grocery shopping in! You’re right, an ED does rob you of any hope you may have of living life and being productive. I certainly am enjoying life more yet still being productive ever since I started my recovery journey.
Good for you on the rest days
Congrats on already having some cancelled classes, jealous of that. I am not prepared at all and I hope it is just not as bad as they say. I just can’t believe. Also so jealous of your drinks with dad tonight, enjoy!
I’m glad you were so productive! It’s weird – sometimes when we least expect ourselves to crank out work we end up working/finishing even more. Not complaining about that at all! I’m actually nervous about the storm, too. Long runs are the absolute WORST on the treadmill. Especially since treadmills seem to perpetuate injuries
That is how I feel, I never feel good on a treadmill so rarely use them unless it is absolutely necessary. I love the feeling of being productive so always a good treat!
I love it when I’m productive! I think it’s ok that I had to take a week off from exercise (doctors orders) sometimes a break is good. I’m not sure how I feel about the weather- I’m excited all the trains shut down so that I don’t have to go to work, but hoping nothing too crazy happens.
I am the same way, hopefully nothing too crazy just some freaking out that gives us all a little break. Stay safe!