The first time I heard DTM used at my work I was confused. DFM was common slang dropped in college (Dance Floor Makeout). Don’t worry, not by me. DTM on the other hand was something that I began to hear being thrown around at my work, at our training in California this summer, among co-workers. What was it? Basically a second nature quality to me… DOING TOO MUCH.
I know I am not alone on this DTM front. It is something I have known about myself, this constant battle of doing too much and finding time to handle all that ‘too much’. When I took the second job at the running store, I had a very smart lady tell me ‘Alex just be an employee, don’t be that super star, just show up to work, do your job and go home.’ Wait what?
I struggle with ‘just being’. I always feel like I need to DTM but have never really looked at why I feel this need, this pull to always do more than necessary. Whether it is an everyday task, a small request or a project, I have this internal battle about how to go above and beyond just the mainstream requirements. I have been doing this since as far back as I can remember, my family can vouch for me on that one.
But again I come back to, why DTM? I think for everyone there is a different reason that surrounds it but for me it is because I find it a great mask. A mask of all my insecurities I have about myself and my abilities. EEk vulnerable much? I am only being honest when I say that I struggle with self confidence, I struggle with fully believing in myself sometimes. This leads me to feel these large gaps in my abilities, ones that I would do anything to hide. The process of DTM takes some of those worries away. I am able to hide behind all the tangible work that I put out.
I have met many people in my life that have that ability be ok with that bare minimum. To be ok with saying no when things are just a bit overwhelming. To accept that some things can’t be done. For some reason, I just can’t. Every bone in my body is pushed towards that extra this, that extra that – just please don’t see how scared I am? Maybe it is fear that people will see my flaws or fear of failure that pushes me beyond the minimum.
Lately though, I have been trying to redefine this quality of myself. Don’t get me wrong, DTMing can get me places. DTMing can really impress people. In the long run though, DTMing can be a train wreck. Obviously, there are things I am ignoring when I keep taking on more and more. There are things I am turning my shoulder to. Oh, that wonderful quality of avoidance that I seem to be queen of.
Now, I am not saying that I can all of a sudden be a non DTMer. Just won’t happen. But I think I need to spend more time tearing down those walls behind the why I feel so pulled to DTM. Slowly but surely, a process.
Questions: Are you a DTMer? What is your reason for needing to DTM?