Before I jump in on a total other tangent, I just want to get this out. I am frustrated with my September. I felt like I let myself slide by with negative thoughts and feeling, making the month overall not what I would have wanted. Yes, nothing totally groundbreaking but in all not what I am proud of. I want to make October better. I have no patience for little goals, I know a lot of the work is in the day to day stuff. That being said, I think kicking it off with my mom coming to help me sort out all my thoughts will do wonders. It is up to me to be accountable though, to myself first and foremost. Because September I did not.
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Whether it was the constant downpour and chilly temps, I feel like I am in a funk of negativity. It is hard when you are so waiting for the week to go by yet at the same time knowing there is still so much to do till then. A funk.
Instead, I tend to pull out my ‘tool box’ to see what can recharge this low mood and press the restart button. Humor is one of those. Now, this post is not meant to insult at all. I could honestly write a huge post about all the serious things that blogging has taught me. Many bloggers have done that – I probably will do something like that one day because I don’t see my life without blogging at this point. But for now I am feeding my need for sarcasm and laughs.
What I have learned about myself from blogging…
- I have an addictive behavior. I had never even heard of Kabocha squash, Downtown Abbey, NuNaturals (I could go on) – but these are all now regulars in my life. I went from never using NuNaturals to using it everyday in my coffee. Go figure. Blogging has brought out that addictive side of me. Who else would wake up early and go to bed later so that they could blog? This girl.
- Measuring devices and portions are basically a foreign language to me. Those dainty spoonfuls I see, those precisely measured portions that appear BLOW MY MIND. You mean to tell me a dump of this, a smidge of that, a handful of this isn’t accurate? That is my language.
- I lack all containers that are jar shaped. Who knew there OIAJ would be something I could not even attempt to try because I never buy jars (aka no nut butters)? I am one jar less girl.
- I eat un pretty food. I never take pictures of my food because I seriously would be laughed at. The art of putting together a meal on all one plate is even rarely something I do. I use multiple dishes or even (I admit) a napkin as a device.
- My photography skills are that of a gifted four year old. I do lack a real camera but even people who use instagram take some stunning pictures. Mine tend to be un recognizable, hence the lack of pictures on my blog.
- I would fail miserably if I owned a bakery. My baking attempts thus far have all ended in an inedible, burnt or gooey mess. Food Network does not have to worry about me rivaling any of the stars in their baking skills. I will stick with pre made, pre packaged desserts. Who said gummy bears? (Someone PLEAse make these for me!)
- Eating clean does not mean drinking water as I eat whipped cream by the spoonful in other words ‘eating clean’ is not for my lifestyle. I give credit to those eat clean fanatic who never touch a processed piece of food in their life. I couldn’t do it, I basically would need an iv of sugar to get me through the day.
- A plank is not lying in bed on my stomach. I wish because that would mean I plank once a day! Go me. If that doesn’t count then I am back to square one of ‘I really should strength train’. One day my friends, one day.
- Grandmas, me and bloggers all share the same hours. Who knew that my crazy morning-ness and early bedtime could be *gasp* not even considered that early for some of the hours fellow bloggers pull? It makes me feel a little less insane for loving those morning hours.
All jokes aside, I really think blogging has taught me who I am as a person. No matter how much comparing I do, I slow have come to terms with the fact that I don’t need to put effort into everyday to be able to live it authentically. That feels good to say.
Hump day! Finally! One more sleep till Mom arrives.
Questions: What has blogging taught you – of course with humor/sarcasm?
Isn’t it funny how the blog world creates needs/addictions for things we may never, ever would have tried?!
I love the e-card…SO my life. Yep, I’m 14
it seriously blows my mind how much I have tried or heard about just through blogging. ABsurd. The e card is my life as well.
Hehe, Alex, you are awesome.
I’m definitely with you on the staying up late to blog thing (I reaaaally should be in bed right now).
I don’t measure much either! If it’s going on the blog as a recipe I’ll try to measure it out, but generally I tend to just throw stuff in a bowl and hope it’s tasty.
Exactly my approach as well, sadly the tasty factor is never really a winner. Need to work on that. One of these times… I swear.
Taking my blog seriously has taught me to take life less seriously.
And ugly food is like a puppy that just rolled in a giant mud puddle — questionable on the outside, but pure goodness on the inside. (However, I do not recommend eating your pets and should mention that no pets were harmed in the formation of this comparison assessment.)
I’m a sucker for comparison, but reading other blogs has basically showed me that I rock (and I have learned to ignore any part of any blog that would indicate otherwise). Selective reading and constant self-love my friends — it’s the only way to go.
Selective reading is key, I have to agree with you on that. I seriously looked at that metaphor and was like ‘where is she going’ but then you made it make so much sense. How true.
Haha and all of these reasons are why I love reading your blog
Blogging taught me that it’s so much more important to figure out what works for you than it is to try and imitate what someone else does/eats, because there’s so much going on behind the scenes that we never hear about in daily posts…
You hit right on the head with that, I think that has what made blog reading more relaxing for me. I need to constantly remind myself that there is a lot more than the pretty pictures and lifestyle that they write about
Blogging can be an outlet to think out and write down your thoughts. They are smack bang in your face so you have to deal with them. And learn about yourself in the process. I am also a terrible photographer, baker and my food is not always so pretty!
I constantly have cooking disasters and take terrible pics. I cook quite a lot now because I have a family and the same goes for taking photos. I find 1 in 5 meals is good 1 in 30 photos. And 20 out of 30 photos are totally unusable, 2 out of 5 meals in edible! Haha! I also never measure anything other then by heaps, piles, pinches and dashes! Maybe why my cooking is less then successful! 
Exactly, I refuse to measure so no wonder my cooking never turns out right. I also lack patience when it comes to kitchen stuff so i tend to not wait the whole time or try and make it go quicker. setting myself up for failure right there.
Funny post! As much as I try to eat “clean”, there’s definitely room in diet for processed food…I don’t want to even imagine what raw chocolate would taste like!
haha that just sounds wrong! glad you find time for that wiggle room, i think everyone needs it in their diet.
Love that ecard. That’s how I feel my life is most days. Also I am so with you on the sugar thing. I can’t kick it! I try hard, but I love it too much!
Sugar is my vice but I wouldn’t want it any other way.
Blogging has taught me that everyone is unique and different. Including myself.
I actually love baking, but it NEVER turns out like the picture! 
Have a good day!
so true, I question those picture perfect baking pictures. I mean there is some skill right there! have a wonderful day as well!
Alex, you hit the nail on the head with addictive behavior. Whether it’s watching Downton Abbey or making overnight oats multiple times per week (which I had *never* heard of before blogging), I thrive off routine, so once I find something I like, I repeat it. A lot. I also keep “grandma hours.” My friends at school used to make fun of me, but now they know if they call/text after 9:30p, then I won’t respond.
ha we are the same person! People know I will respond but most likely I am waking up to respond. Bad habit of sleeping with my phone next to me, i am such a light sleeper!
As much as your September wasn’t that wonderful, you just need to put it in the past.. learn from the mistakes that may of held you back & embrace October… and eat lots of candy corn for me of course
ha ha is it weird that I think of you every time i eat a spoonful of whip cream?
NOOOOO that makes me smile that you think of me. I can’t promise I will eat candy corn but I hope I feel at least more adjusted in October.
Ha Ha, well even if you can’t make that promise.. as long as you make October a good one than i’m happy! YOUR MOMMY COMES TODAY!!
Yayaya!
i LOVE it that you said “one more sleep”…i have been texting tex all week with “three more sleeps till you!” glad i’m not the only one who counts days like that
and don’t worry about your september. sometimes funks happen, but you’re awesome for recognizing it and i know you’ll have a great october.
Ya, I guess I was just hoping that September I would have that more settled feeling but I still feel and make excuses that I am adjusting. I have been here since June darn it! I love counting down by sleeps!
I am sorry to hear that September was less than stellar
but try to remember that it can indeed improve from here! I feel ya on wallowing in the negativity though, I find myself susceptible to it!
I sooo have an addicting behavior too, although I was aware of this before my blog, it has now come out in full force
Yes, addictive behavior over here as well. blogging has made that a little more. September wasn’t terrible it just wasn’t that settled in period I was hoping for.
I know you’ll do great this month because you want to! And your mom coming will only help that a million times over
Clean eating is not for me either, and I am definitely the girl who eye balls ingredients in a recipe and decides that handful was probably accurate 
I am an eyeballer at heart, probably why I have so many baking fails. I think kick starting it with my mom coming will be great. thanks for those kind words Laurie!
I know what you mean about blog addictions- i have tried a whole bunch of new foods that I never knew existed!! I need to get better at making time to blog – not sure when to fit it in! Those cookies are so cute — plus, they are CANDY CORN. I may have to try my hand at them – if I do, i PROMISE i’ll send you some
I know, seriously. I am in love with merigues and these are CANDY CORN shaped ones. how cool! I seriously have learned about a lot of new products through blogging. Social media at its best
I love how the blog world makes me feel less like a grandma and more like a normal person and the rest of the world insomniacs #sorrynotsorryilovetosleep
it is so true, people in my daily life think I am literally insane. i’ll take it!
Haha–#2! That’s how I cook! It’s SO hard for me to put together actual recipes, since “just put some of this stuff in with some of that stuff” doesn’t really count as a recipe
that is so how I roll, throw it together and you get a meal.
haha this post cracks me up! I am the same way, I eat my dinners on aluminum foil, napkins and/or paper plates…classy
Glad i am not the only one,i do all of the above. makes it delicious right?
Haha, I literally laughed out loud at these- and what’s truly funny to me, that they’re true and if I hadn’t started blogging I would have no clue as to what half of the food I currently consume is and I would be stuck on the same gym routine hoopping between the elliptical/ weight machines with no variety
those are both so true, the food i eat on a daily basis is so different now!
haha you’re too funny! lol! The blog world makes me feel like a normal person too, especially with the whole waking up at the crack of dawn thing haha
it is so true, everyone else thinks we are just a special breed.
Oh, there are so many things blogging has taught me. Blogging has taught me that cold oatmeal is not only acceptable but encouraged for breakfast, that chia seeds should be eaten rather than used to grow pets, and that it is absolutely necessary to worship at the altar of pumpkin from September-November.
Hahahaha
All in good fun, of course 
Those are all so freaking true! All of which non bloggers would be like WTF?
You are so funny!!! I always laugh when you call yourself a grandma. Just wait until you get out of bed and your joints are all creaky and your muscles are tight, hahaha. At the ripe old age of 29 I definitely feel like grammy
And I’ve said this before but seriously my diet is the farthest thing from “clean”. I would be embarrassed to post what I eat too!!!
You make me feel much more human, thanks for that. and let’s hope i don’t actually turn into a granny!
You are so freakin’ funny, I LOVE IT! I can relate to so many. Never heard of NuNaturals until like 4 months ago. Never made a protein pancake in my life, until 4 months ago. Never would have increased my calories if it werent for starting my blog, etc. AND my pictures are ALL from my iphone that I ATTEMPT to edit on picmonkey. I don’t want a real camera, screw it. I take pics on my phone and thanks to icloud, they show up on my mac that instant. The thought of taking pics w/ a snazzy camera, taking out the memory card, uploading to my computer? no thanks. Love these posts!
wait… ok first off right from the phone to your mac? HOW!!!!! I need that, i would take way more pictures if mine did that. I am glad blogging has had some good things as well. Makes it that much better.
it does it through iCloud
hm have to check this out!
This post is so glorious. I could rant for hours about how certainly things are only blog foods LOL. There are def a few foods that I’ve become obsessed with from blogging like peanut flour but it goes to show when Trader joes stopped stocking it because of poor sales that bloggers don’t rule the world…yet….
oh my gosh so freaking true, rule the world, just laughed out loud at my office. i am all about taste rather than looks, for sure.
Eating clean is HARD. I don’t care what anyone says. I love how you put it all out there. It’s refreshing and I think a lot of us can relate!
It really is and for some (including myself) totally unrealistic.
haha so much of my food is so ugly too!! but so delicious
exactly, it is taste that matters.
I too have an addictive personality
Also, the majority of my food isn’t pretty either. I will occasionally attempt a new recipe and want to share on my blog; however, the food tends to taste better than the pictures ever turn out 
So true, my recipes are not so pretty
Blogging has taught me so much too! And I don’t own jars either (except for leftover pb, but I usually throw them out). I think it’s given me a little more faith in people….there’s so much support and positivity in the blogging world
I don’t like nut butters so you see my problem no jars! True, the blogging world has so much support.
Totally the right approach to reading blogs! Just because we don’t eat perfectly portioned, beautifully photographed food everyday doesn’t mean we’re not happy, healthy, and enjoying life!!
I agree, I agree. I sometimes forget the unpictured stuff people avoid putting on their blog
I totally agree with you about the picture taking… I try, but it never looks CLOSE to what other people post. I guess I need a $400 camera so it’ll look halfway decent.
I know, something I certainly can’t afford
Blogging has taught me patience! It’s so hard to photograph new recipes before you eat them!
haha what a great point, I know that is why i dont photograph as much because I am too busy eating it.
I definitely have an addictive personality! It is interesting what you find out about yourself through blogging.
October will be a better month!
That is what i hope! Blogging has totally made my addictive side even more!
I have a verrrryyyy addictive personality. I’ve had one my entire life and it can get pretty out of hand sometimes. Oh well
I think it can be one of those good and bad traits. I am the same way!
being negative isn’t good but keeping it in is worse. you letting it out is important. we don’t mind it. we love it because it makes you so human and most of the time you figure out what you truly want while writing about something. if I was more lax with writing my feelings online I would. I only do surface but no one really reads mine. I think yours is more real so you have more readers. hehe don’t change!
Aw so sweet of you Melissa, I think being honest is why I started this blog.
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