Eek team eek. I am the type of person who likes having answers, not in a day, a month or later- I like them now. I also don’t like to disappoint people. You know the classic people please, Type A mentality. The GI doctor heard my symptoms, saw the rash, felt my stomach and left me with… only more questions. The next month includes various blood tests, a dreaded colonoscopy (I had to schedule it for later rather than sooner this month because I can’t keep missing work) and various other tests. I need to work on patience. They have this new feature though so I can see my blood test results. However, this is also a bad thing. Looking at it – I have no idea what I see but I see tons of red bolded ‘abnormal’. Apparently, I have low MCHC (hemoglobin), low RBC (red blood count), high RDW- CV (something about blood distribution), low Hgb (something to do with an infection), and low Hct (another blood one). Seriously no idea what this means.
So who wants to trade?
I would trade… the ridiculous commute it takes to get to the GI doctor for an accessible one (or a car). They told me this would be convenient, aka an hour long walk because there is no metro is not convenient. Luckily, my dad was still in town so drove me at 730 am but getting to my work after took over an hour of walking, busing and metroing. Let’s not mention the minor tears I may I have shed in the process. I don’t handle stress well. Period.
I would trade… the humidity returning in full force for those nice cooler mornings we had last week. Holy freaking humidity was my run a sweaty mess this morning. My body felt great actually, it was a speedy run but boy did I sweat a river. Don’t mind me new hot young male neighbor as I force you to stand in the elevator with me in this disgusting state. I make great first impression.
I would trade… this jam packed short week for a (don’t kill me) a normal four day work week. The fact that I have to fit five days of work into three because of the holiday and wedding this Friday is making these three days a stress ball mess. I need to somehow in the next two days visit three schools before 10 am on both days, give a presentation to LivingSocial, stay late for Incubator training, and oh the casual still recruit over 20 mentors. (pulls hair out…)
I would trade… hunger rumbles for some contentment in my stomach. Nothing is sitting well so I feel even more hungry despite eating. The doctor said this was normal and is probably just because I am not digesting food properly. Oh, so normal. Welp.
I would trade…my friend unable to come visit me anymore this month for a much needed reunion. She sadly has a test so I hope we can reschedule for next month. Fingers crossed.
I would trade… my feeling that I am disappointing my work for some positive feedback. It is not that they are saying I am doing bad or doing anything wrong but it is the fact that I FEEL bad for coming in late for doctor’s appointments, missing days, having to plan more doctor’s appointments… Just makes me really uncomfortable doing in a job that is so new. Makes me stress even more.
I would trade… a text from someone I stopped talking to that just baffled me for some genuine emotions. This person hates my guts but I got this text out of the blue all, hey hope everything is going well, mode. A what? I don’t do fakeness. Not one bit. I even had another person in the same sort of, we are not friends boat, that sent me a message earlier on this summer. Hello, I don’t do bull crap.
Today I have learned a lot of things about myself. I am a complainer, a whiner, a worrier but also someone who is willing to work with what she has. I got to work (yes two hours late…) but started to write up a to do list, update my schedule and get right at it. I won’t let a time crunch or physical pain keep me from the Alex that is responsible, hard-working and always ready to be on the move.
So, today I WOULD NOT trade….
- The FREE Dunkin Donuts iced coffee. Hello, gift card.
- The 9.4 mile run that I jumped out of bed for at 530 am.
- A GI doctor that is really wanting to give me answers even if it may take time.
- An apartment that felt awesome to be in last night.
- A planning mindset that keeps me one step ahead.
- And a mom who will listen to me cry my eyes out.
- My sarcasm. It keeps me grounded.
Those are some lovely points. Bring it on Wednesday.
Questions: What would you trade up today? What would you not trade?