I almost didn’t write this post. Marvelous was kind of the last word I wanted to hear myself utter. Let’s just say I actually feel more stressed than before this weekend. My apartment is in shambles, today was way too long for my liking, my stomach hates me and I have to somehow fix all this before my long day at work on Tuesday. Not ideal. Our first touch of food was 845 pm Sunday night, another not ideal situation. I just have to breathe.
Again, another weekend that seriously blew by. This was my last relatively free weekend in September and last break until Thanksgiving. I also decided going to New York City in two weekends was a bad idea, I just don’t feel my best and think I need to lay low. Let’s forget those little details, shall we? (And of course thank you to Healthy Diva Eats for keeping us positive each Monday!)
Marvelous…a weekend with my dad was somewhat of a success. Basic furniture like table, couch and tv stand – check. Still no chair for the table but I mean who eats sitting down no a days? Jokes. It looks like someone actually lives there! Even better, my craft box came down. I do get excited about the little things.I am hoping to get a grocery shop in because my dad was furious when he saw an empty fridge and bare cabinets. 
Marvelous…my dad made an eight hour drive just to run around like a crazy person with me to set up my apartment. We may not have accomplished everything but he seriously made my weekend so wonderful.
Marvelous… my apartment can finally get those ‘Alex’ touches that will come slowly but surely. That will come in pictures for the walls, home-y type activities and maybe even entertaining people. This aspect I would rather take my time with.
Marvelous… I see the GI doctor tomorrow. I have never been more excited to see a doctor. I do worry though I may be on some crazy medicine or dietary restrictions for a bit and with a wedding this weekend, that could be no fun.
Marvelous… it is a three day work week for me because I head off to Lexington for my friend’s wedding on Friday. While I am so freaking excited to see my best friend marry an amazing guy, something she truly deserves, I am not looking forward to the weekend. Selfish, I know. I just already know I will be seeing many college enemies and triggers. So not excited about that. Mentally, I keep trying to prepare myself but I know nothing can truly be prepared for until I hit it.
Questions: What is marvelous today? How do you mentally prepare for a challenge?
Bahaha I love that dog picture. Don’t stress out girlie, everything will be all right! Whenever I have a challenge, I look back to things I’ve gotten thru before and just believe that I can handle it. I’m glad your weekend with your dad was a success! Good luck at the doctors and maybe you’ll meet a cute man at the wedding
Goal. Meet a cute man. Love that perspective, I need more of you in my life to brighten my days up!
Sounds like you had a good productive weekend with your dad! Good luck with the Doc tomorrow!
Thanks Kelly, it really way.
I agree with Chelsea, you should totally be in man-hunt mode at the wedding!!
I know what you mean though, you’ve been really stressed lately and I bet you just want some time alone to CHILL. I’m crossing my fingers for you at the doctor’s tomorrow, I definitely hope you figure something out – although I know for me, the more strung out/stressed I am the worse my stomach behaves no matter what I eat, so maybe just getting everything all balanced out will help. I think before the wedding it might help to just kinda check in with yourself and be like “okay, I’m awesome, I’m strong, I can do this, it’s going to be more fun than I think” etc etc -that’s what I always do before doing something scary and it usually helps!
Wow what great advice kate, it is true. The wedding I can do just that and also work on surrounding myself with those people I know I love spending time with and am excited to see. I think chill would have been nice but what I got done can never beat any kind of chill weekend, I mean I needed to actually move in sometime.
spotted: moneill. hahahah love that pic! glad it was successful with art, miss you!!
Junior year prom… hilarious right?
Congrats on getting a start to fixing up your apartment…. I’ve found that when I’m adjusting to a big change, having a sanctuary that feels like home is so important!! I am always in a rush to get things on the walls and family pictures around me! Good luck at the doctor tomorrow
It is true, that is a big reason that I am so concerned with having an apartment to make it feel like mine. Always makes it that much easier.
Good luck at the doctor – hope it all gets better by this weekend
and I’m glad you had a good time with your dad, I miss mine tons. I hope the wedding this weekend is good – you should definitely aim to meet a cute guy 
I’m sure he’ll make it all better haha 
haha I love this cute guy mentality, I mean man who knew a wedding could be more than a wedding. Thank you for the nice thoughts, it was good to see my dad no matter what happened.
You already know how happy I am for you that you & your dad were able to find some goods for the apartment
. No need to rush into all the decorating girl, take your time & enjoy it. I know whenever I first moved out yrs ago, I would take a certain amount from my paychecks & put them towards house things. It was the perfect way to save, yet spend on necessities and wants. I so wish I would’ve known you before I moved out here to Kuwait because we honestly had to get rid of everything we owned in the house pretty much. I do still have a few kitchen appliances @ my parents house in PA that you can have (once I visit in March) if you want, and still need 
.
I’m so sad about your STUPID stomach, and hope the doctor can give you some answers that you’ve been waiting for. I remember feeling so excited when I first visited the GI too, haha. It’ll all get straightened out girl.
Don’t worry about those people while you are attending your friends wedding this weekend. They didn’t matter than, and don’t let them matter now. You are too beautiful of a person to deal w/ that
. Dance the night away, and find your future hubs! (Maybe even a rich one that way you two can come visit my hubs & I lol)
You are so sweet! I know christmas time when people are looking for presents that is really when I need to pull out what do I really need for my apartment card. I actually can’t wait for that. The little touches I would rather take some time, makes it more a process. tomorrow is so close so the gi guy will be a life savor. I may just cry and burst into tears when I see him, haha! Let’s hope there is a cute one there… I love how everyone puts down meeting a guy at a wedding.
Ha, well lets just hope this GI isn’t a freaky doctor and scare you away! I remember when I broke my arm once, I had to be rushed to the hospital. Well the doctor came in (his eyes all messed up, going different directions), titled his head @ me and was like ” I broke my arm once.. but it didn’t hurt (in the freakiest voice EVER)… I being my “lovely” self, yelled back “well this one does!!”.. Thankfully my mom said something to someone & got me a new dr lol
Oh goodness, I am so nervous. I just want answers but I worry I may get some random diagnosis or worse something really bad. Not good.
Oh girl, no need to worry!!! You’ll be A ok I promise you
Crossing my fingers.
Let me know how it goes girl!
This is such a ‘silver lining’ post — and although I haven’t really seen your silver lining goddess yet, I think you might be rocking the title right now. Congrats on the optimism — things haven’t been going your way lately, but it’s amazingly reassuring to see that hope shining.
Best of luck with the doc. Don’t settle for anything less than the best he can do. You deserve his utmost attention and care. (Oh! And write down any questions you have before you go in so you don’t forget to ask them!!)
As for the wedding, you’re the owner of your own feelings, no one else can tell you how you should or should not be feeling. Never feel guilty or shamed about a feeling or emotion you have. (That being said, I’m all for the guy scouting while you’re there!!)
Love the guy scouting call out, my dream of course. Haha. Silver lining is something I know I always need to push myself to look at. I have a list of questions for this doctor with all my symptoms and eats. I am excited for some good answers.
I hope things go well at the Dr. Sometimes after an ED it takes a couple of years for your digestion to get back on track.
Glad you got stuff for your apartment. It is always nice to see family! Your Dad sounds really sweet!
Have fun at the wedding!!!
Yes, I am hoping the doctor can shed some amazing light on how or what is going on.
Go in with positive thoughts! It WILL be fine – who cares about other people – think of all the AMAZING things YOU have accomplished so far!!
True true, My debbie downer go to needs to be shaken up sometimes. Always a lovely reminder Linz!
Good luck at the doctor- hopefully there will be some good news and hope for your GI issues, they are definitely no fun. And it was so sweet of your dad to come down and help you with all that furniture, hopefully having it around will make your house seem more like a home and a little more bearable, especially if you can’t always get out and go to places like NYC on the weekend. Good luck with the wedding too!
I can’t wait to post pictures. It will be so great to just have that space I call my own.
Today is Hokie football! every Tech students favorite day! I am glad your dad was able to come and help you out! I hope the GI appointment is enlightening and fixing! Focus on the meaning of the wedding and beauty of young love. Who cares what those people think you are doing great and they would be jealous!
Let’s hope it is enlightening because I sure am sick of this. I hope that I just don’t get caught up in the moments at the wedding. That is where I could run into my own head with my own thoughts.
So glad that you are going to the dr tomorrow! I hope everything goes well!
I am also glad that you were able to spend this time with your dad….even though it was running errands. Just being around family and great friends just relaxes me.
Wish we could all just go to the wedding with you to take your mind off of all the triggers and enemies! Your peeps! Or what is the word….entourage?? He he..
It will get better, I just know it. Get the drs appt out of the way and then go from there. One foot in front of the other girly!!
I love that idea, my peeps always have my back. haha. I agree family just calms me down no matter what and in the end he will leave and things will resume to normal. It was nice to have him for a bit!
haha love those pictures! I hope the doctor will be able to help you out with your stomach issues, I know how much that can suck and bring you down. But at least you’re headed in the right direction
and yay for your Dad helping you this weekend! Try to enjoy your time at the wedding with the people you do like 
no need to stress over the ones you don’t especially during such a joyous day 
So true, I keep forgetting about the wonderful parts… like my two good friends getting married!
i hope you get some answers about your stomach!! i can’t imagine not being able to eat right.
for the wedding i think you should pump yourself up about it! be the strong, beautiful, confident self that you are! let loose and let yourself have a GREAT time! I love weddings!! 
That is my plan, to find ways to pump myself up! I will be always thinking of everyones advice when I am there.
I’m glad you decided to write this post,Alex,because you always have to keep reminding yourself about the positive things in life as well,no matter how dark it may look like sometimes!
I hope the doctor will be able to help you somehow,it’s so awful to have stomach issues 24/7,I can definitely prove that myself. :/
Also,don’t be afraid of the wedding. You’re gorgeous,girl,you just have to believe in yourself! Chin up and amaze the men,you’re gonna rock that party!
Wonderful advice as always Kat, I know with everything I just need to stay grounded and keep myself in the moment. Easier said than done for sure.
Your dad is definitely awesome – yay fixing up apartments!
And try not to let college issues get in the way at the wedding – they’re meant to be enjoyed! Just try to have fun with your friends…and keep an eye out for cute boys.
He does tend to make things more complicated but nothing would have been here without him. I hope I can enjoy the wedding and forget the petty stuff.
Glad that your apartment is started to feel like home. I know what it is liek to be running around crazy for weekends on end.. you know.. the time when you are suppose to RELAX and recoup from the week! That is what our life was like all summer!!!
Hope your appointment goes well.. I’ve had positive and negative experiences with the GI doc. Negative when I was diagnosed with IBS-C (nothing helped it).. but positive when they found ulcers in my stomach..
If either of those end up being the case.. email me if you want to chat!
I am so worried it is something serious so rather than keep writing it off I knew I had to go. I just worry what he is going to say. Eek – I will be emailing you if I need some advice. First time at a GI place so who knows what he will say.
I’m so proud of you for going ahead and writing this post. I know it can be really hard to find things to get happy about when you’re feeling like shit. I’m so glad your dad was able to come and help you out this weekend–parents can be really great when you’re feeling just totally out of it and all over the place. I know your mixed feelings on this weekend…its kinda similar to how I felt about my BFF coming this weekend…lots of triggers/weird feelings/anxiety/discomfort plus guilt for sort of dreading something that should be so much fun. Try to remember the happy reasons why you’re there, and keep your head up babe! I hope you get something figured out at the Dr. tomorrow! Love you lots pretty girl!
xoxo
What great reminders girl, I know writing it was what really helped me realize all the small things. I mean he drove so far and no matter what it is better than when he wasn’t here!
I hope those doctors figure out your stomach issues!!! I’ll be thinking about you girl!
Thank you, I hope they do too, crossing my fingers.
I’m sorry your weekend was less then great, but it’s awesome that you managed to find all those good things from it! I definitely understand the stress that comes with moving into and organizing a a new apartment, I am just now finally getting settled into my own.
Once I am settled though the feeling will be awesome!
I’m sorry you are so stressed but at least you saw your dad! And you’re in a new apartment
which you decorate and make into your own home.
exactly! Crafts it is!
I was in a similar situation a little over a year ago with my stomach absolutely hating me….I know the feeling and it is completely miserable! I saw a doctor about it but they didn’t really have an answer or diagnosis for me….so I went gluten free on my own and my symptoms were poof! gone!
I have been gluten free for a while so I just worry it could be something worse. More tests it is!
HA that green ecard is dead-on. It’s weird to look back and remember how you visualized yourself to be when you would be at the age you are now.
I know so freaking true, I love those ecards. Always make me laugh.
there’s always something negative but thinking about the positives always makes me feel better!! wedding! cannot wait to see how pretty you’ll look!
don’t skimp out on the pictures. I love weddings!
I am the girl who doesn’t have a camera so let’s hope either my iphone holds up or someone else takes pictures.
cannot wait!