So I had a whole post. Then I deleted it. Wasn’t feeling it for some reason. The comments on my post yesterday blew me away. I am still soaking up all the insight and advice.
Instead I wrote an honest email to my Mom about life in DC lately. I know we talk almost everyday but I am so not a phone talker. I tend to do better when I write out my feelings. More genuine, better put. It felt good to say the least. I wasn’t looking for a reply back. I am still trying to convince my parents to come this weekend.
I realize for the first time I have no long term goals. For so long I was in that school environment where I was working towards graduation, going to college, graduating from college. Well what now? I have a job, I am attempting to start a new life but again for what? I don’t even have short term goals except get through the work week.
I sat down tonight so unmotivated and frustrated. I am in a job I never thought I would be in and in a city I never thought I would live in. I am not unhappy about this but it shows me that I have no idea where I want to go from here. Uncertainty and no ultimate goal is a scary place for this Type A personality girl.
So where to start? Setting September intentions. I let myself slack this summer because of transitioning to DC, moving into my own place and ultimately dealing with a lot of change. Well, it is time to hold myself accountable. I want to run faster, I want to train smarter, I want to be more social, I want to eat better, I want to have more adventure…I am still tweaking these so they will come soon with more realistic end points.
Questions: What gets you motivated? What are your goals for the next month?
[I have to leave you with this little gem...The note the maintenance guys left in my apartment after finally replacing my microwave was pretty hilarious to walk into last night. They wrote on the form, 'do you actually live here? My dog takes up more space.' Oh goodness people, you think I would get furniture and actually occupy the place with decorations, food, THINGS.]