Well, I’m back. Barely in one piece. Let’s just say, I left at 445 am Wednesday forgetting the most important bag that included my sheets and snacks for the two days. Ultimate fail Alex, ultimate fail. Thursday night returning to an empty fridge was just exhausting. Now I get to dread the root canal at 3 pm today. I can’t decide whether the pain I am in now is going to be 10 x worse as the pain I will be in after. They said I won’t be able to eat on it for a good week. Woof. What is keeping me going? My runs, my blogging and my organization. I feel the need to have a mental dump. [ Also edit, the Giveaway ends tonight at 10 pm! Go enter while you can!]
Confession… I got to work from home today yet I still woke up at 6 am to get miles in and begin my massive to do list. I swear it never gets shorter!
Confession… I hate how judgmental I am. I am most judgmental of myself – the inner monologue that plays is never quiet. I am never good enough for myself and is something I know I need to work on. I should do this, I could do this. The list goes on
Confession… I am not proud of how judgmental I was going into the trip with the 13 tenth graders. I had in my mind a group of kids that would be immature and there to cause chaos. Boy was I wrong. I got to hang out, talk and laugh with all of them. Despite the pain I was in, the hunger in my stomach, I am grateful I got this time with them. I learned so much about each individual and this is only 13 of the 150. It taught me a very humbling lesson to put my pre-notions aside and let actions define my opinion.
Confession… I nearly tear up every time I hear about HLS. I want to go so badly, I would give my arm and leg to have had enough money to go this year.
Confession… I am craving good food. Like some nice fresh steamers or boiled shrimp. For the first time in a while I just feel down right frustrated with my eating. Not overeating but just boredom with what I’m eating. Sheer boredom.
Confession… this week has been my lowest mileage in a while. Between my stomach virus at home and my two days at launch camp, I am ready to rank up the miles again. I hate this jittery, low energy, state that results from lack of endorphins. GET AT ME ENDORPHIN HIGH.
Confession… I have no idea how I will react to this root canal. I have a bad feeling the drugs are going to make me very sick (like they always do) and the length of the procedure is just going to wipe me out. It doesn’t help I will be spending all morning playing catch up on work and heading straight from work to the appointment.
Confession… I need a hug. Like a real hug. From preferably my mom. Something I didn’t realize I would miss about living alone, in a city without any friends I see daily, is that I miss that human comfort.
Confession… Snack attack has been really good for me. Yes, a pain in the butt and a lot of anxiety but getting small trials of new foods is something I needed. I don’t venture out when it comes to food, it takes a lot to get me to buy something new. For the first time I am realizing all the things I am missing out on and while I may not buy all these regularly or even monthly, I for once acknowledge I want to change.
Confession… a lot of bloggers posts have been hitting home for me which is good, really good. That self reflection and re-evaluation is basically being forced in my face. I am not perfect in any aspect of my life, I know this more than ever. But a lot of what I hold on to are things I want to rid my life of. I just need to remind myself that it is one step at a time. It is the first step that I always struggle to take.
Confession… I consider myself a little evil sometimes, to myself of course. So does eating these make me less evil?
Snack Attack: LesserEvil Krinkle Sticks and Kettle Corn
Ever heard of these? I sure hadn’t. What I have come to realize though, is that I am salty person. Sweets have been making me just feel sick even my loved chewy candy. Instead I go for that crunchy salty kick and these delivered.
LesserEvil is a company that believes in snacking without the past habits of going for the greasy fixes. I couldn’t help but love what they wrote: “We believe that life is about balance, and we don’t believe in being perfect. LesserEvil vows to continue its mission to fight bad snacking with a little goodness. Join us in our journey toward a LesserEvil life.” In addition, they just recently partnered with Autism Awareness and give 10% of their profits to these charity. Loving the goodness all around.
Before I get into the Krinkle Fries, they also have their Fields Good Kettle Corn – both Classic Kettlecorn and Black and White. So, truth be told, I am not a huge fan of Kettlecorn but whatever they inject in that Black and White flavor is heavenly. Also, lots of kettlecorn isn’t gluten free but both these flavors were gluten free. I was so surprised by the vanilla and chocolate contrast which I thought would be subtle of the Black and White but clearly shone through. Amazing to say the least.
Now, I got to get my hands on their Cheddar, Sea Salt, Sour Cream & Onion and Veggie flavors. These sticks are all natural with no added sugar, preservatives or cholesterol. Their only non gluten free one is the Veggie. I want to describe the first bite. It is like an airy crunch yet melt in your mouth flavor where you can taste the flavor in each Krinkle. Holy yum. I seriously could not get enough of the Cheddar and Sour Cream & Onion. These were a win for the fact that the flavor was spot on and not subtle. I need that flavor burst!