Truth. I need this post right now. I realized after nearly breaking down in the grocery store, my emotions are a little out of whack.
Truth. The apartment interview went well. I mean there were lots of people looking at the place so we have to see what they decide.
Truth. The place is kind of nasty. I was immediately turned on by the beautiful neighborhood, I mean it is one of the Georgetown row houses. But then the smell inside and the unkept house made me cringe.
Truth. I worry the little bit of love I could add would make no difference. The furniture is from the 1950s, stains and all. The appliances barely work and the oven is pretty much ancient. Could sprucing up actually fix this place? I worry.
Truth. I would be walking about 20 minutes to get to the nearest metro and then metro to my work. I mean not bad but a lot of walking. A lot.
Truth. I am so torn.
Truth. My worst idea yet came when I knew I needed to grocery shop. I was overwhelmed to say the least. Even though I saved a lot of money by going to a local produce place (no seriously I saved SO MUCH MONEY, everything was way cheaper and better quality – note to self always shop there), I was still overwhelmed. I was ambivalent, indecisive and I am pretty sure a lot of that was emotion not meant for the food but for the other aspects of my ‘anxiety’ that I am dealing with right now.
Truth. I wanted so desperately to turn around and walk out. But I didn’t. Instead I lugged the groceries back the 1.5 miles almost cringing in pain. The most lifting I have done since… well the last grocery trip.
Truth. Today has been a tough day and I am still trying to come off of it.
Truth. I wrote this whole post in one long brain stream that took five minutes.
Questions: What is your truth today? What helps you come down that roller coaster of emotion?