Sundays are great. They are my catch up day. I do errands, I prepare for the week, I make to do lists. Productive but what I need. Last night however, I slept terribly. It was one of those nights where I tossed and turned, had vivid nightmares and could feel the anxiety pacing around my head. I did get up, later than normal because for some reason I just couldn’t pull myself out to bed even though I was wide awake. 10 miles at 8:30 am – bad freaking idea.
Some good news, I am going to an open house today. It is a three bedroom which I am a little ambivalent about. I can’t put my finger on it but for some reason I want to live alone. I hate that, am I being selfish? Am I hiding from something? I am going to check it out because it is a great deal – Georgetown area, reasonable rent, 10 blocks from an orange/blue line, I would get my own room. I just feel something holding me back.
Yesterday was a really long stressful day. After running pretty early with the intention of getting the cable guy between 8-10 am like they said, he was a no show. Finally 1145 rolls around he shows up. Big shocker – still no cable. Way to go. Also, the guy was kind of creepy. Asking personal questions, mumbling more than life itself, thank goodness there was two of us here. In the end, no cable, no olympics, no bad tv. I’m dying. (Exaggeration, I know. Calm down Alex).
So our roomie trip to Eastern Market lasted about 15 minutes. I didn’t get to buy any produce meaning the fridge is yet again bare as ever. We were already late to the sorority thing by going to Eastern Market so when we tried to head back to make the last hour of the social event – the Metro decides to run ONE rail for both ways. Holy shiz. We end up walking more than enough, wait for the metro, walk more and get there by 345. 15 minute awkward chatting with no free ice cream? That blows. I mean the few girls that were still there were nice but somehow I got cornered with someone I did not relate to. Epic fail. 
I am letting yesterday go. I feel run down from the week. I think I feel run down in general. Apartment hunting is going miserably. Not an exaggeration. I feel defeated by this. I can’t do anything about it and that makes me mad. I want a permanent location, I want a home, I want to feel content with where I am. I don’t right now. I am still in transition, a long and uncomfortable transition. My friend was really awesome in talking to me about how I doing – which I kind of needed. My stomach has been more than terrible, not sure why, that makes me even more nervous. I am feeling unsatisfied with food, days, people. Uck.
I actually had no idea I had this all in me. I sat down to type this thinking I had nothing to say. Man, this is truly eye opening. Crazy.
Today is catch up. That is all I got.
Questions: When is your catch up day? What activities do you do to make yourself feel more balanced or in a good place?
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I am spending the day getting caught up. I just took down months worth of recycles, weeks of garbage, put laundry that has been piling up in, and am going to sort out my notes so I can attempt to study for my test on tuesday! By test I mean final exam of last course I might ever take. No wonder I feel off my rocker! I’m going to cut myself some slack for being so off kilter for the last week and use it for motivation to get back on track this week.
I hope you find your footing ASAP and remember to think positive–you’ll get there! 
Thanks Cheryl, it is those little reminders that I really need to keep on hand in moments like these.
Aw man I’m sorry that things have been rough! Sundays are always my catch up, rest, and rejuvenate days. Just remember it’s the start of a new week and it’s gonna be a great one!
Such a great reminder Tara, thanks!
I’m catching up today too. Groceries, gym, doing an obscene amount of dishes, maybe prep some blogging stuff … I’ve got a whole list! I like starting the week all refreshed, organized, and ready to go.
Living alone = the best. I’ve done it for two years. Good luck at the open house! I hope it pans out
I do love living alone and for some reason I just really want to. What a great catch up day, I agree going into the week organized really helps.
Sundays are my catch-up day! I like starting the week on a calm, prepared note! I just made a big batch of quinoa to have during the week.
What a great way to prep for the week. I make loads of lists.
I try to use Saturday’s as my catch up day.
I either work until noon or have the entire day off, so this gives me ample time to get caught up, ponder my thoughts or solve the worlds problems. 
As for living alone, I don’t think you are being selfish at all! When I moved out, I was dertermined not to have a roommate…..mainly because I would drive them insane!
Have a great Sunday!
That is so reassuring to hear, I think I really needed that input right now! You are wonderful.
nooo wanting to live alone is NOT selfish at all! I mean yeah, generally it’s cheaper to share rent with someone else, but you can’t put a price on comfort and happiness. You need a quiet, safe, clean, non-smelly place that feels like home and that you can relax in – there’s nothing worse than living in a place that makes you feel on edge or grossed out! And ugh…yah that does sound like a stressful day yesterday. But catch-up days can really bring you out of that crappy stressed feeling – you get shit done and then feel a little better about life haha.
True true, I did get stuff done and that is what matters. I think just seeing so much effort I put into apartment hunting and getting nothing out of it really is a bummer.
My catch up day is whenever I feel I need to catch up. haha easy as that. and no it’s not selfish that you want to live on your own. I want to live by myself in an apartment sometimes but at the same time living with a friend seems fun so you’re not always lonely. I love living at home right now though … no rent. d:
ya, I think it is a tough choice to think about. I don’t want to be too lonely but I also want my space. Ugh so many decisions!
haha have a good friend live RIGHT next to you. d: