It is tough, everything is going right yet I feel so out of it. The next few days before my graduation on the 24th will be less than stellar on the blog front. A little sporadic and probably a jumble of words.
Frustration is probably the only way to describe how I am feeling right now. I am frustrated that I am stuck in my head rather than just living. I am frustrated my sleep is suffering from how I am feeling. I am frustrated my number one trigger is returning to campus tonight. On top of it, I am lonely. 
I am ready for a change of environment. I am ready to move on from this place because right now I feel stuck, a stuck feeling that no more time here will solve.
Today was a good day. I packed more. Went on a walk with a friend. Laughed a little. Made some bad food choices. All in all ups and downs.
So what will I do to make tomorrow better? I will try and be compassionate. I will remember my priorities and what really does matter in life. I will ignore the outer physical self and pay attention to the inner beauty I am struggling to see. 
Countdown begins…
Questions: How do you find self compassion? What did you do this Sunday?
That’s not an uncommon feeling before graduation! You’ll get through it – have fun as much as you can. Such an exciting time!!! I wish I could go back.
It is nice to hear that everyone feels this sort of stress before graduation, I just can’t believe it is happening!
I have a lot of trouble finding self compassion. I am constantly finding things to beat myself up for, but I’m really trying to focus on the good things over the bad. It’s definitely tough though. Things will get better once you’re officially graduated and everything settles down. Right before graduation is SO hectic, but I promise you will feel a huge sigh of relief once you walk across that stage. So close!
I know, I can’t wait for thursday to come, that will be the reality check moment. Whoa.
Self compassion is completely okay unless you don’t “wallow” in it constantly. Sometimes,it’s just necessary to feel bad for yourself and blame the world for being so ugly,but it’s important to know when it’s about time to focus on the positive things in life again.
I can relate to feeling lonely a lot lately,but trust me,you aren’t ! I know there are so many people out there who care about you,including me,even if I can’t be with you right now… So chin up & stay strong,you’ll get through this because you’re strong!
Aw thanks Kat! I hope I can get my chin up and really see the amazing two weeks ahead.
I wish I could give you advice on self compassion because I am horrible at it too. In fact I have been incredibly frustrated lately too, and the longer it takes to snap myself out of it, the more frustrated I get! Good luck with everything
Compassion is so tough to learn, one of the hardest things for me to practice.
It must be the time of the year. I am struggling right now too. It is so hard to snap out of it. But we can. Like you said, be compassionate. Try to be good to yourself. Make healthy decisions to feel good! When you feel like you’re at the bottom the only way to go is up. Put some makeup on, wear a sexy shirt, smile often. Sometimes we just have to fake it til we make it! Surround yourself with love and happiness and you’ll be feeling great in no time. I promise!
I too am a firm believer of fake it till you make it, thanks Susan!
I’m sorry you’ve been having a rough time! Isn’t it nice to start over each day and try our best again?! Take care <333
Thanks Allie, that means a lot!
You are in my thoughts as you struggle – I too have been having a stressed, crummy last few days and am finding it difficult to stop being hard on myself and be kind to myself mentally. I feel like my brain is always throwing negativity at me and it’s getting more and more exhausting to fight it off. I just want to be lying on a beach somewhere right now, with no worries! I try to seek compassion from others to feed my own self compassion – namely my parents, but it can be anyone in your life. Good luck, dear!
thank you! And sorry to hear you too are sharing the thoughts. I hope a few days of jam packed graduation and then beginning my move will get me out of this!
I felt the same way before my graduation. Don’t worry it is totally normal!!!
That is what I am hoping! Thank you!
graduation was such an emotional time for me! I was so ready to be out of school and to move on with the next stage of my life but the fear of the unknown freaked me out, I was going home to waitress and had no real job in my future at the time! My best advice is to enjoy your next few days, laugh cry, reminisce about the good times and the bad and be excited for the next stage of your life! Your moving to D.C and have a job!!!! Only more exciting things can happen
I definitely feel fortunate to have a job and a new place to start a life in. Thanks for the kind words!
Awaiting change is always tough! You’re in a strange in-between transitional place but I bet you look back on this time and smile
Best of luck with the move!!!!
Thank you, I am excited but definitely nervous. New surroundings always help though.
Aww girl I want to reach through this screen and give you a big ole hug right now! I soo get how you are feeling right now, 100%… of course, as always we are the same person and share such similar thoughts. I know this period of time is quite difficult for you, and understandably, but you will make it through, I can promise you that! In those last few weeks, all I could think about what busting out of there and getting home. Now that it’s over though, I am happy of course, but it did go by soooo so fast, just do your best to enjoy the last bit there.. whatever that means for you and whatever makes you happy and allows your to feel mentally okay!
Aw thanks Tessa that means a lot. I just know that everything will seem less overwhelming if I don’t look at the big picture but rather the smaller steps leading up to the move. I hope home is treating you well!
I definitely felt like this before graduation – it’s a really stressful time! especially because everyone’s going their separate ways, and so you think you SHOULD be all happy and making the most of it, but in reality everyone’s scared and stressed about the future…and it can come out in odd or even ugly ways sometimes. I actually got in a few “fights”/had some akward moments with friends because emotions were just so high. It’s really important to be forgiving of yourself – the last thing you need is to feel guilty about feeling the way you do, or like you “should” be happier/having more fun etc – most of your friends probably feel the same anxiety!. I think you’ll feel a LOT better when your family gets in to town though!!
Ya, I have realized most seniors are actually feeling the same way just dealing with it in different ways. I am trying to stay above water and just move on through.
The moment you are in is such a transitional period in your life…you are definitely about to move on to greater things and embark on post graduation life and career! So very exciting. Try to focus on how incredibly blessed you are to be graduating college and doing great things for yourself. I try to find compassion by lending a helping hand to others in their time of need. You will get through it! Rely on your friends and family for support and encouragement.
Thank you so much this is such a sweet comment and all so true!
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